Once I forgave myself, everything got easier.
So many times I wish I would of acted differently.
And there’s even more times that I wish I would of stood up for myself, and not let someone treat me a certain way.
For so many years I carried this pain in the depth of my soul.
Once I made the decision to forgive myself, it all seemed to fade away.
I forgave myself for how I treated others and the pain that I’ve caused them.
And I forgave others for how they made me feel.
But most of all I had to really dig deep and forgive myself for letting what others did affect me.
That was hard to swallow. Because it’s so much easier to blame others for my pain.
This journey is NOT easy but when I wake up in the morning, all I can do is try to be better, even if I don’t always make the right decision.
It’s easy to see someone’s pictures and think that they have it all, but what’s inside is a never ending cycle of self discovery – full of immense pain, trauma and regret.
Once I choose to forgive myself, all of this seemed to go away, at least for the time being.
So when I find myself feeling those feelings that we all know too well, I ask my Lord Jesus Christ for forgiveness and to help me carry my burdens through life.
Because I know for sure the decisions I make will follow me throughout my life.
And I so gratefully have Him to walk right along side me, to help with those pains.
I love you all and I am HERE. Talk to me! Together we are stronger ♡